The start of August was so tumultuous that I hadn’t thought of the timeline of events until this moment. I mentally pushed those contents to the month of July and I suppose I just voluntarily ignored the timing. This month was a long one y’all, I mean it. I wasn’t sure if any goals were going be met. If you want to know what plagued July, you can click here to see that post.
I was doing well for a bit, then I was thrown. I stopped taking vitamins unintentionally months ago and let my diet suffer the most it has in quite some time. I didn’t know I had let myself get too comfortable but I will say I made some strides and I’m more prepared for September. In August I started working on some things.
1.Quality of Life Goals
I managed to focus on my quality of life goal this month in a way that I had been neglecting. I grabbed some of the vitamins I had been missing from my diet. To start, a multi vitamin was the biggest thing. I can figure out what else it is that I’m missing based on what I’m eating and how my body is reacting. So adding a multi vitamin helps when I’ve had one too many donuts, which has been a growing issue.
The most recent task I’ve completed is optometric. I have had a special case of opthomologic needs for most of my life. I’ve managed to get ahold of high contact script and made my first glasses purchase in almost a decade. (Don’t judge me) So my quality of life will and has changed dramatically in a short amount of time.
2. Dietary Goals
So I’m one of those people who emotionally eats or emotionally starves. That’s the hard part about my ED. If I am too stressed, I won’t eat. I forget, allow my mood to shift and then get somber. It’s a blood sugar thing I think. So to combat some of this I added a protein shake to my routine. I eat less when I’m at work usually because there isn’t enough time. So I start my day with a shake and a bagel or some other breakfast option. And instead of just “winging it” I proceed to eat fairly consistently throughout my day. I’m proud of myself because I supported myself in a way I’m unused to.
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Early august I knew I’d have to face some challenges and instead of just “winging it” I prepared myself for what I’d face by supporting my dietary needs before I had to face it. I made sure I ate, well. Forgave myself for some of the things I ate in order to feel better. Forgiveness of self is a long term goal I’m working on.
3. Project Goals
I’ve managed to put more “money” where my mouth/fingers is/are. I decided that instead of going back to try and ghost write for more people, I’m going to write more for myself. I’ve started working on two nameless projects, they actually have tentative names but… Yeah. I’m working on outlines and plot points with some dynamic character building. Along with trying to figure out the “how” and “why?” I’m trying to step outside of my comfort zone and be vulnerable in my work.
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Along with writing more, I’ve managed to do a little more art work. It’s been hard because it isn’t as mobile of an activity but I have managed to finish some pattern work and make it available for sale on the Spoonflower website. *Spoonflower is a bespoke fabric company that allows you to buy designs on various fabric types*
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I ALSO started a society6 store. The reason is because in all that I have going on, I needed to find someone that could print my art prints for me, that I trusted in regards to quality but also customer service. So this was a way for me to do that without having to invest in an expensive art printer and other things. My living situation isn’t what I’m used to and my financial situation isn’t wha tI’m used to either. So I am working with what I have available while also respecting the circumstances I’m in.
The Recap
I finally am able to give myself some luxury-less luxuries like contact lenses. I am back to supporting my body in the deficits by adding vitamins and minerals additionally to my regimen. I’m investing in my art and content like I used to. AND I have actually been taking circus classes for about 8 months and have just accepted that it’s my physical routine.
My goals change every month and I always have more than 3. I am learning to give myself more credit for what I accomplish and less chastisement about what I don’t. Much like my projects, I’m a work in progress. So how was your month, what did you accomplish? What were your goals? Let me know!